Tuesday, March 13, 2007

Why Does The Good Guy Finish Last?

Once again my efforts are useless. I put everything on the line for another person and end up with nothing except more hurt feelings. I don't even know why I bother with this thing called LOVE. Every time I do it ends up with my heart being ripped out. Well my roommates are now gone. It seems that the girl I was hoping would be the one really wasn't. We were all supposed to go on a camping trip. The emotion around the house was high. Everyone seemed excited to go for the weekend. Everyone, but me. Who wants to be the third wheel? It has started to get a little awkward for everyone. (as I had posted earlier) my feelings for Bev have been growing with every day that passes. I see a beautiful woman standing in front of me with so much potential. This girl is smart, beautiful, caring, loving, devoted, yet she lacks the courage to do what many feel is necessary. She can't leave this particular guy. She needs to leave him, but she is in "LOVE" ( I hate this fucking word!), and she feels that they have gone through so much together. Well the reason they have been through so much is that he brings it upon himself. Everywhere he goes a black cloud follows. He has been unemployed for over three years now. The only person that he will ever care for is himself. He is such a selfish prick. Why do these fuckers always seem to be loved, and the rest of us, the guys who would do anything for a woman like this get their hearts handed to them. Many times I had to stop myself from reaching out and ripping this mother fucker's face off. He would go on about how this girl was just a rebound that never left. How she was so "niggardly" because she wasn't cleaning up after his fucking ass. She was just a babysitter with benefits. Lately it was getting harder and harder to listen to anything that came out of his mouth. I can't believe the way she bends over backwards to make him happy, and he has no respect for her. Not one bit. He is always talking about his ex. Hell he is always with his ex. while bev is at home raising his kid. The thing that gets me is that she knows all of this and she still feels like she needs him. She doesn't need this bastard at all. He doesn't deserve a woman like her. What will it take for her to realize that he is a fuck off? That he will destroy her life. I mean the guy has no chance in hell to ever amount to anything. He doesn't have the balls to be a man. He will never be able to provide for a family. The only way he survives is spongeing off others. I don't want to sound jealous, but in a way I am. Why should a person like this get someone so special? How could a guy like this destroy such a beautiful woman's life? How?
If she was to be with me, I would treat her like a queen. She is a queen. She makes the world a better place to be, and deserves the best in life. I would give her anything that she desires in life. I would take care of her and his kid. She is a person who gives and keeps on giving. She would make anyone feel special, and this fuck doesn't see that? I realize that their past may be hard to throw away, but she needs to look to the future. If she stays with him I would be willing to bet her future is very grim. She does not deserve this. Why can't she leave? Why does she see, but can't let him go? I've witnessed her strength, but why is she so weak when it comes to this? I love you Bev, and want to spend my life with you. Why can't a good guy catch a break once in awhile?

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